Current mood:	contemplative
Current music:	Jimmy Eat World
Entry tags:	aloha room, drinks, esd, poutine, tiffy

Itchy feet
The spell breaks with Matthaeus. For all his sporadic e-mails, yesterday's was I guess the most shallow- fitting with the subject line of- even a deep lake has a surface. So very true, with him... His last reply to me left me a bit stranded as to what to write back and just illuminated that he has me down all wrong. I took a diplomatic route in pointing that out and struggled with what to reply to his, um, request and then today when I checked my e-mail, I re-read what he'd written and how I'd responded and then it was suddenly meh, whatever. Write back or don't. You were awesome to meet and talk to but over e-mail you remind me of that guy who's trying to score on the first date but trying to do it with I don't know? Pretension? At any rate I suddenly was reminded of this guy Barry whom I briefly dated in uni who kept trying to get into my pants but I wasn't really interested and I just didn't care. With M though, it's kind of a shame. He is really intelligent with a lot to say and maybe I screwed up by not talking a lot when we were together but then my sister was there and I found it more interesting to listen to what she had to say and just generally observe her. That sounds odd, but when you've seen me and my sister together and our complete dissimilarity it does make sense. Plus I don't know what to make of the lines that M spun to me, which seem to be the same lines he spun to her. Blah.

Having that case of itchy feet. Wednesday was Sukkot and I went with the family to Berel's for supper in the sukkah. Ariel was visiting from Israel so had a bit of chat with her about that. She transferred there for her second year of university and has been there for the last eight years- finished school and is working with a think tank. She is currently looking for work in North America because she's had her fill of Israel for now. And right now with that feeling of neither here nor there it has me thinking and looking at different options... well to a certain extent. I don't hate my job or my life but it all feels blah. And I know it's one of those myths that people are happier elsewhere because in the end people are the same everywhere... but a change of scenery feels in order right now. And I guess this is all still residual feelings from coming back from Poland and seeing the differences there and if Tim and I manage the UK trip in November it'll just exacerbate that feeling, but I don't think that that's such a bad thing.

Finally went out and saw Tiffy's new house in Munster yesterday with Tim. They met me after work and we gorged ourselves on ESD poutine before going back to my house. Dropped stuff off and then we began our drive out to the 'country.' Tim and I were our charming selves on the way- teasing Tiff about living in Munster and she was really good about it. Her house is fucking fantastic!! Really gorgeous kitchen and main-level; love the hardwood floors. The rec room and den downstairs have an awesome set up- very comfy couch. Backyard is pretty big and Tim and I sat on the canopied porch swing thing while Tiff kept chasing Calvin away from trying to jump on the pool liner cover thing. Absolutely awesome!! Drive back into the city with Tim was a bit of a jolt when on Richmond two deer ran out in front of my car- thank you responsive brakes! Oh and thank-you pick up truck behind me for not rear-ending me on sudden stop. Confirmation that I do indeed have a heart and it does seem to work... jumped right in the throat with the deer. After getting back to my place Tim and I walked to his place so he could change shirts before going to Aloha. So I also got to see his new place :) His bachelor is really cute. Well decorated and good use of a smaller space. I really liked it!! Did up some drinks at Aloha- both of us in mellow/happy moods. It was a really good night.